2015 A New Year Brings New Beginnings

​"It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life...and I'm feeling FREE!"
I always find the New Year so refreshing, this year is no exception, however I have approached this new year in a different way.
2014 to me, was a year of Transformation. I went deep within my cocoon, peeled back the layers, had a good look around, then accepted and loved the real, authentic me - all of me. The shadow and the light. I accepted there is nothing wrong with me, nothing to fix, nothing to make better. Sure I've got stories that try to limit me just like you, only now I stare them straight in the face and say "I see you" and you don't scare me anymore.  So as I was journaling my reflection and review of 2014 I wrote this line that I feel really proud of:

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"I am so grateful for my courage to step into the light"

By having the courage to "see" my stories and where they have come from I know that they are just not true and they only serve to limit me.  I have been able to release some serious shit and FUCK YEAH it feels gooooood!!!

After releasing 2014 with love and gratitude I have opened my arms to welcome in 2015.

But it hasn't been so easy can I tell you!

I found myself completely overworked and frustrated because of it.
I was inspired and wanted to create - so I did and wow what a creation -Meditation Made Easy- a six week course to connect with your soul. It's beautiful and I'm so proud of it.

Where I came unstuck was not having a plan, a schedule and a realistic time frame. I had planned on making a plan I promise!! I was just in that beautiful moment of inspired creation which initially was great but when you are in that space you still need a plan. Ok then I thought - I'll make me a plan. I set aside a day to do it and found myself "just quickly doing something else" and as I sat in front of the computer really fucked off one Sunday afternoon (hello!! working on a Sunday - alarm bells!!!), my hubby came in with a glass of wine (best husband ever!) and as he handed it to me I burst into tears and ranted about how annoyed I was with myself for creating this situation of near burn-out. Bless his gorgeous soul, he told me not to be so hard on myself and that I have done a magnificent job and at least I could acknowledge that I hadn't followed a plan and had completely overworked myself.

So I went inward, as I always do because that is where I find my answers.
What I found was;
a) that I resent having a time-table and routine because I feel it stifles my creative Aquarian nature. BULLSHIT Peta!!! It supports your inspired nature hunny and gives you the room to create!
b) I'm scared of making a plan and sticking to it because what if it doesn't work? You wont know unless you try and who cares if it doesn't work perfectly the first time you can keep working at it babe!
c) I'm resisting letting go of control and  trusting in the process. Sweetness and light-feet when you surrender to the natural flow of life by living in a state of welcoming pleasure and joy, you gain Freedom!!

I felt such a sense of relief when I discovered these insights.

I sat down and worked out my plan to achieve my goals for 2015.

I also consciously committed to surrendering control and to move with grace and pleasure into this beautiful new year, as I said earlier

"Its a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life...and I'm feeling FREE!"

Namaste