Today is the New Moon in Aquarius and tomorrow we start a stage of Mercury in Retrograde (refer to my Facebook post share of Mystic Mamma for more info) so I felt called to tell you this story now.
I spoke in my last blog a little about workplace bullying that I had experienced. To help myself heal from this I wrote a story about it from the third person perspective on a couple of pieces of paper and for whatever reason I kept it. As so often happens the universe has managed to deliver these pages back to me as I was sorting through some stuff last week. Here is what I wrote....
I had never seen such a woman before. Smiling, friendly, confident, caring. She was in control. She developed friendships with other like-minded people, the young professional up and coming management of nursing. She quickly became an integral part of the team. Then she was made team leader. Through unseen hard work and commitment she had risen to the top in under three months.
The others who had been there for ages (over 20 years some of them) were suspicious of this vibrant woman who laughed a lot and got on well with higher management. Quickly they grew jealous and talked in whispers. Some were outright rude and aggressive with words and actions. They felt so threatened by the light and power in this woman that radiated bigger than they'd ever seen.
So they set out to destroy her.
Whispered words soon turned into barbed spears which she felt in her back.
She was under attack.
Her heart hurt. Her pure goodness couldn't understand the venom.
She took it personally and they found a chink in her armour. Soon her light was fading and darkness descended. She questioned herself - are they right, are their words true?
But that light inside, though dimmed, was still burning. This wise woman engaged her inner warrior and fought through it. It was hard, hurtful and tasted bitter. She was angry. It didn't only effect her, but through her, her family suffered. The most important people in her universe suffered.
Thankfully she was able to gradually retreat.
She looked inward, she began to see the truth and her heart softened.
She began to distance herself from the venom, the toxins. She felt better but a sadness lay around her heart. She was angry with them still because they had wounded her and changed her views toward her work.
With hindsight now she knows, in fact she knew all along in her deep subconscious, that this was a valuable lesson. She is not a victim. She is a survivor. She can get through this and have more clarity, drive and purpose to a greater vision. She is here on this earth for a purpose, a greater purpose.
She thanks those venomous people for teaching her how to self-protect from lower, darker energies. She knows she wont be there for much longer. Where will she go? She's not sure yet. But the universe will guide her. All she has to do is ask.
"Loving guides, angels, ascended masters and light beings please show me the way."
She is me.
Wow!! So powerful stuff hey? I was amazed when I read this back to myself. It worked you know! Within a short time of writing this and asking for help I was able to leave that job and move to another place that enabled me to spend my other time creating and birthing this place...The Soulful Mama.
What is also VERY cool is that I was asked to go back to that workplace to be a guest speaker talking about Energy; the impact it has both positive and negative, the philosophy of what you project is what you receive and also Meditation as a means of self care.
Those close to me said "what, no way why would you go back there?" I saw it differently. It was an opportunity for me to inject positivity back into a place that had caused me such pain and it helped to heal some of the wounds. I also got paid for it!!!!!! YEEHAR.
So I can highly recommend this technique of writing about a really hurtful situation in the third person to help yourself heal. With the planet of Mercury in retrograde as I mentioned earlier, the next two weeks are an opportunity to reflect, learn and release.
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