OPERATION #lovingpeta Day 6

OPERATION #lovingpeta
Day 6
What makes you feel safe? This is a question I have asked myself and posed to my leaders that I work with in order to start that process of understanding what it is we need to feel safe. Safety is one of those foundational needs that we have as humans in terms of keeping physically safe but what makes you feel safe to feel, to dream to desire, to ask, to receive, to believe, to love, to experience joy, to be empowered, to be honest, to speak out, to show up, to play, to laugh, to sing, to dance, to be-you-to-the-full?
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When I asked myself this question a few years ago I realised that one thing that helps me feel safe is being organised and on time, my friends and family will most likely laugh because traditionally those have not been my strongest qualities!! In fact I can quite easily sabotage myself by trying to fit too may things into a 10 minute space of time, like hang out the washing, eat breakfast, clean three sets of teeth, check my biz back office, write a quick facebook post and listen to Voxer messages as well and then wonder why I am yelling at the kids to get in the car “quick, quick, quick!!” and flying out the door cos I’m 10 minutes late, feeling hot under the collar, and anxiously thinking Fuck now I’m late for my 9 o’clock call…blahblahblah… sound familiar? Talk about feeding a limiting belief of ‘not good enough cos ya can’t even get anywhere on time and you always let people down by being late’ 
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When I started working more consciously with feminine and masculine energies within me (the yin and the yang) as well as universally and in others I recognised that being organised was a structure to help me, rather than to hinder me. For a while there I resisted the masculine energy cos I thought of it as constricting me, the killjoy of the party, the ‘sensible boring one’. When we talk about masculine and feminine energy the feminine is the creative, intuitive, feelings part of us (the Being) and the masculine is the structured, organised, logical thinking, planning part of us (the DOing). 
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But I’ve since learned and experienced that the masculine structures ‘hold space’ for the feminine to swirl about and dance and play and dream and get inspired and connect intuitively. Yet the feminine can only really be this way when it feels safe. 
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So I realised that acknowledging and becoming friends with the masculine energy within me would actually allow me to be even more in my feminine flow as it would free me up to have space to BE. So for me learning the art of being organised and on time became a focus. 
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It’s an interesting dance though and in my efforts to befriend my masculine energy I had swung out of Full on Feminine Vibe into Full on Masculine Vibe quite unconsciously (until a friend that I respect and trust pointed it out to me when I was asking for advice on something). I had completely gone into the DO-DO-DO and not created any room for the gentleness of just Being in the flow. There was no balance. I was on FULL ALERT and juiced up to the eyeballs on GOTTA GET SHIT DONE LIKE YESTERDAY LET’S MOVE MOVE MOVE!!!!
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Now don’t get me wrong it’s a really useful energy to activate the ol’ masculine getting shit done, but when you press that button ON and gaffer-tape it to be ON like 24/7 the system starts to short circuit!!! Something I prefer to say is ‘let’s make magic happen’ so that I can draw in all my energies and that of the universal vibrational energies and draw what we desire in doing the actions necessary whilst being guided by our intuition. But with all that gorgeous knowledge I still found myself unable to STOP doing all.of.the.time and just BE, welcome to centre stage The Worn-Out Woman Peta.
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If you haven’t already guessed I’m all loved up today and feeling all philosophical, I’ve just finished my Yoga Nidra practice using Frankincense (the King of Oil with a very ancient masculine energy that calls to your heart to remember the truth) and Lavender (Lady Lavender with a feminine energy that melts away the harshness and soothes the she-wolf) as my gorgeous essential oils to go even deeper into this practice of getting my RESTING on and I am feeling beautifully blissed, un-rushed and connected to me which is a great place to be #lovingpeta
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