She Is Me

Week 2 of the Sistership Circle Facilitator training was all about Opening your heart to Receive and how you may be getting in your own way of allowing this to happen and so this got me doing a lot of reflecting. Then week three has been about Self-forgiveness. I have done a lot of forgiveness work both towards myself and to others that I feel have hurt me so I was surprised that I had more!! Whoa I personally found it really heavy and I did some proper crying after the call ended.
I also panicked and thought I’m sick of doing this inner work and feeling like I just keep un-layering more stuff to fix. ​

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 Then I thought Peta you are being too hard on yourself. I know that I am really honest with myself and really embody the sense of owning my stuff and I need to celebrate that! So in order to keep going deeper I’ve realised that I don’t have to beat myself up about it and I can embrace the wise, magical Goddess Isis within me and shine Archangel Haniel’s love that is also within me – on myself.

SELF LOVE, truly embracing my shadow without judgement; really accepting it with love and gratitude for the insight it brings and at the same time celebrating all of my love and light for the amazing wisdom I already have and the way I lead my life that inspires others and myself.  And I'm proud of that.

I generally apologise when I think I have let someone down. This week as part of the Sistership Circle we are being asked to not apologise anymore and I'm more than happy to do this however I do want to make one apology and that will be it!

I am apologising to the little girl inside of me that gets hurt and confused because she feels like she’s not good enough and has to work harder every time I beat myself up and sabotage situations to feed my story of not being worthy/good enough; it’s not fair to her. She is amazing and she needs to be told this every day and loved unconditionally by me. She is Me.  

After the call (and the cry) I took myself and the kids (3 boys) down to the beach to be playful and present with them and let their childish innocence flow over me and let my inner child come out and play. 

By the way she peaked out from around her safe corner and liked what she saw!

Big Self Love to me and thank you to the Sistership Circle for giving me the 'container' that supports my continued growth and learning.

Is it worth it?

Absolutely, because for the first time I actually love and accept myself fully and I am open and ready for all that this beautiful life has to offer. I'm in.

Namaste
Peta